Friday, December 28, 2007

Merry Christmas to all..and then some...

Happy holidays! We're back from our trip to NJ to celebrate Christmas with the family. As usual, it took us forever to make the trip because of traffic and bathroom trips. The way up took us about 6 hours (including a 20 minute bathroom stop for C, and 45 minute dinner break). Luckily I had the foresight to send most of our presents up with my inlaws so we weren't cramped on the way up. The way back was a completely different story. Alas, I'm getting ahead of myself. Here's a rundown of our week:
  • C and M had a blast playing with Aunt C (J's sister) who was in from CA. We only see her twice a year, so it's one of the main reasons we head up for Christmas. C really remembers her so she was over the moon to see her, but M was a little resistant. She warmed up the next morning and had a blast from there.
  • C and I arrived to NJ with allergy/cold issues. Both of us were pretty miserable the first day or two, but recovered. J and M seemed fine for a while, but are getting it now.
  • C was able to see her friend Sophie who moved away this summer. To say the girls were excited to see each other was an understatement. They were adorable together. We met up for lunch and then headed to a local B&N to let them play a bit. They sat and read books which was just soo cute. Pictures from that will come...
  • Christmas Eve was insane as always. The festivities started around 2 pm at my inlaws and by 4, the kids had opened presents. Early, yes but they were running around in circles so it gave them something to do. C enjoyed everything she got and loved playing with her cousins. By the time we headed over to my mom's house at 7, it was another story. Both girls were fried and acting up. Moral of the story: one Christmas Eve for us from now on.
  • Santa came in with a bang on Christmas morning. Both girls LOVED all the presents and excitement. While I didn't get pictures, I have video that I'm going to edit and post. The biggest hits were C's Barbie dolls and M's Little People Garage. They are still opening new toys at home and loving it. I ,on the other hand, am trying to figure out what to do with all of them!
  • Aunt C and I made a Rice Krispie house instead of the traditional gingerbread. It was much easier to build (thicker pieces) but harder to decorate since the surface was uneven. We all loved to eat the "debris" though! :)

I think those are the highlights from the trip. The week also included family drama, bad weather, and a trip to the ER. Yup, that's right...the ER. M was running a 104 fever on Wednesday so I called our pediatrician and she wanted us to get checked out. The dr. at the ER said it's probably viral and M seems to be feeling better today. She's back to eating, so I'm taking that as a good sign.

The trip home took over 9 hours which was horrendous. The weather was bad, the traffic through Nj was worse, and M was running a fever the whole time. To say we will never travel the day after Christmas again is an understatement.

So there you go...the holiday according to us. Hope you all had a wonderful one and a happy new year!

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Procrastination at it's finest...

Yup, that's me procrastinating. You see I should be getting ready to get on the road and head up to NJ, but instead I'm writing this blog. I'm tired, correction exhausted, as my kids were up from 4:30-6 am. I then had to dash out the door by 9:30 am to go get bloodwork. Now it's time to pack. Or is it??

I realized that I neglected to provide M's 18 month update. Bad Mommy, I know. So, here you go...

M had her checkup last Thursday while I was in bed recovering from a stomach virus. Her stats are as follows:

Weight: 25 lbs. 3 ozs.
Height: 33 1/2 inches

She says the following:
  • Please
  • Thank You
  • Welcome
  • Mommy
  • Daddy
  • Mema
  • Pepa
  • Mimi
  • Samby (Sammy)
  • Tubby
  • Cup
  • Drink
  • Cat
  • Kitty
  • Milo
  • Baby
  • Puppy
  • Birdie
  • Monkey
  • Boots
  • Dora
  • Diego
  • Super Why
  • Show
  • TV
  • Pancakes
  • Bagel
  • Dip
  • Carrot
  • Yummy
  • Roni (Macaroni)/Pasta
  • Yes
  • Ok
  • No
  • Let GO!!
  • Stop It!!
  • Get Down
  • Done
  • Cleanup
  • Nose
  • Eyes
  • Ears
  • Mouth
  • Teeth
  • Tongue
  • Cheek
  • Chin
  • Head
  • Hair
  • Buckle
  • Open/Close
  • Up
  • On/Off

There are a ton more but that's all I can think of right now. She can sing "Twinkle, twinkle", "See Saw", "Cleanup", "Go to Sleep", and "ABC's". She's running, trying to jump, and loves to dance and spin. Overall she's really happy all the time. She's just started throwing tantrums when she gets mad. Fun, right?

Her sleeping is still being worked on, but we'll be dealing with that after the holidays. Ok, enough procrastination. Off to pack. Hope you all have a wonderful holiday!!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Winter Wonderland Recital

C's recital was Saturday. I haven't had a chance to put the video online yet, but here are some pictures from the day. This is the best one. The called C's name and she ran across the stage. Unfortunately, her tutu decided not to stay on her hips...

Here she is shaking her thing. She was a Rockin' Rudolph and danced to "Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer".
To say the whole thing was hilarious was an understatement. It is truly the best money I spend. I get the whole mommy pride thing going as well as sore sides from laughing! Her teachers really do a wonderful job at preparing the kids, but the kids have their own agendas. Here's one little girl deciding to take a "seat":

She wound up sitting down right on the end of the stage. Priceless!! I'll post the video once it's up.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Catching up

It's been a busy December here so far. We've been busily decorating and preparing for the holidays. Miss C had her school concert on Tuesday which was really cute. I'm going to try get some up on the computer and will post it once I do. Now we are busy in preparation for this weekend. C has her winter dance recital on Saturday which also means our house will be overflowing with out of town guests. Time to clean!! :)

To make this week a little crazier, I got hit in the parking lot of a church right before C's concert. Luckily no one was hurt, and I'm hoping the damage is minimal (seems like my mirror was the only casualty), but it's a pain to deal with. We're heading up to NJ next week, so I don't have a ton of time to get this done. Oh well...just need to get through this week, right??

We'll be taking some pictures tonight in the hopes of getting one in front of our tree we can use for our cards. I'll (hopefully) have a great shot to post on here later.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

A visit with Santa and other things...

On Sunday we headed to our local mall for a "Breakfast with Santa". Boy, what a rip off!! I paid $30 (M was free) for the four of us to go for breakfast and a visit with Santa. I thought there would be pancakes, etc...but it was actually nothing more than a 2 star quality hotel continental breakfast. Meaning there was fruit, tiny bagels, tiny danishes, and munchkins. Yippee!! Needless to say we all left starving from the ordeal, but Miss C was ecstatic that she got to sit with Santa. As you can see, Miss M didn't feel the same...

By Wednesday, M was acting really crabby and had a snotty nose so off to the doctor, and in a snowstorm no less, we went. Turns out she had a sinus infection that backed up into her ears so she's on a course of antibiotics. Hopefully she'll be all healthy before the holidays!

Friday, November 30, 2007

'Tis the Season

Well, tomorrow marks the beginning of the holiday season for us. You see as I mentioned here I refuse to start decorating or celebrating Christmas until Dec. 1st. So far I'm hanging on to my timeline. Miss C is a little dismayed that we don't have our tree up or the house decorated yet, but I'm sticking to my guns. I have to take a stand somewhere right???

With this weekend marking the beginning of December, I will now allow us to make a head first plunge into decorating, shopping, etc. So how will we begin? A visit to Santa? Throwing up lights around the house? Nope. I'm starting with cleaning. My kids have entirely too many toys and books and such, so there is no room for all the loot that will be had on Christmas. This weekend I will be conducting our annual purge where I will give away toys and books. I'm not sure how the kids will handle it, but I've already talked to Miss C. about giving to kids who aren't as lucky to have as many toys as her. She liked it in theory, we'll see how it goes once we put it into practice.

Yesterday I had a visit with a woman in my mom's group that I've become friends with. Yes sir, I made a friend! WOOHOO! ;) I went over to her house and while Miss C and her daughter played I was able to get my talk on. At one point we were talking about Christmas and what to get and she brought up an article she had read about rewarding kids with toys. According to this article, it said by rewarding children with toys starting at a small age, you're setting them up for wanting things all the time, or becoming spoiled. what to do? I totally don't want my children to be spoiled brats in their tween years demanding whatever BFF has at the time, but how do you handle it now? Especially when our family LOVES to spoil my girls?? Honestly, I don't know the answer but we're trying a few things:

1. C has to earn things. We have a star chart and when she reaches the goal, she gets a gift that she wants. I'm kind of equating this to a chore chart, except instead of getting allowance, she gets something she wants. The more money it costs, the more stars she earns.

2. I've been putting away gifts each girl gets for birthdays, etc and giving them some throughout the year. I mean honestly they get so overwhelmed by the sheer amount of stuff they get, are they really going to notice if their stash is light a few items?

3. We're donating things they don't use anymore. I've only done this once before, but as I mentioned this is going to now be part of our Christmas tradition. I'm hoping this will help show the girls how lucky they are and teach them compassion for those who are not as fortunate.

So that's my plan for hopefully avoiding future feelings of entitlement and brattiness. Anyone else have good ideas for this?

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

The long and winding week...

Happy belated Thanksgiving to all of you! I had planned on posting over the week, but the insanity of it got the better of me. I don't even have any pictures to share!! I know, bad mommy...

We were in NJ from last Tuesday until yesterday. We hadn't planned on staying up that long but between family drama and J being sick, we stayed up there. The trip was supposed to be relaxing, minus actual Thanksgiving day, but it turned out anything but. Here's a glimpse of our week:

Tuesday - Arrived at 9 pm. Kids wound up from the drive and don't crash until after 10 pm. M wakes up at 3, and then again at 7 am for the day.

Wednesday - Kids up early but I took advantage of J being home and went back to bed. Woke up sometime after 9 am and get a call from my aunt about my mom. Spend the whole day dealing with that and don't get back home until sometime after 6pm. Kids in bed around 8, but M is again up all night. J begins to not feel well.

Thursday - Thanksgiving Day. Wake up early with the girls and the smell of turkey already in the oven. J is complaining about his head not feeling right. Both girls are cranky because of lack of sleep. Put M down for an early nap which I come to regret later. Spend the day eating and around 8 pm see the look on J's face meaning we need to leave. By 9 pm he's running a 102 degree fever. Spend the night tossing and turning, checking on J and getting woken up by M.

Friday - Black Friday. I had plans on venturing out this year, but between my lack of sleep and no noteworthy sales I decide not to go. J is still running a fever and both girls slept poorly again.

And on and on it goes... Monday I took J to the doctor's where he was told he had a virus. Great, thanks. He seems to be feeling better today, aside from a sore throat. Since M already had this, I'm waiting to see if C and I get it. Guess time will tell...

Now I know some of you may be wondering what the family drama is. I want to share, just not sure how to right now. You see, I've never advertised this blog to my family as I had started it for myself, to give me a place to vent. Given the nature of the internet I'm not sure who is reading this, if Anyway, I don't want to violate anyone's privacy and I'm not sure I'm ready to vent about it anyway. So you can expect more on that later... to get this day going. Hope you all had a better Thanksgiving than we did!!

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Sleep, where art thou?

I am a mom and so by definition I am tired ALL the time. Add to that my gimp thyroid and I go from tired to exhausted in about 2 seconds flat. Recently my exhaustion has hit a whole new level. Enter Miss M. M has not slept consistently through the night in at least a month. I'm starting to feel the haze I lived in during her newborn/reflux months. I'm not sure the real cause of it yet. You see, she's gotten and still is getting teeth, has been sick, we've been traveling, missing naps, etc. But now we have reached a whole new level of it. It's now become that M is waking up at 2 am because she wants attention. Yup, to be entertained in the middle of the night, and what is more entertaining then seeing me scramble it trying to locate her baby/blanket/pacifier or whatever else will get her back to sleep.

Last night (actually the wee hours of this morning) we had one of those incidents. M woke up at 2 am just as I had gotten to sleep (out late for a movie and then talking with J). I went in there and she threw a fit. Literally. She threw everything out of her bed and was yelling at me. So what did I do? Closed her door and went back in my room and freaked out because I've reached my absolute exhaustion point. J promptly woke up and went in there and rocked her for about 15 minutes. No sooner is he back in here than I here M kicking her bed. I chose to ignore it and at 3:45 am she started crying again. I had given her some more tylenol at 2:30 just in case it was the teeth monster that was bothering her. So, I checked on her and then left. 2 minutes later I didn't hear a peep.

So what have I learned from this?

1. I need to buy ear plugs so that I don't jump out of bed and race in there at every noise with the speed that rivals an Olympic runner.

2. I need to get rid of the pacifier. I have been putting it off and putting it off, but it's time. I think part of her waking is because she drops it behind her bed or out the side of it. So I need to start that after Thanksgiving because I don't want to hear it from my family when she's screaming for it.

3. She really is ok and I can't let her cry for a few minutes.

4. As much as M is the cause of my exhaustion, I'm training her to do this.

So we will enter Sleep Bootcamp #2. We did Bootcamp #1 with C and it worked. Took a few weeks, but she got through it and we got more sleep. Time to start again. Does anyone have any words of encouragement or tips? Or maybe a strong cup of coffee??

I'll post updates once Bootcamp begins...wish us luck (and sleep!).

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Sick, sick again...

Last Friday I ventured out sans kids or hubby to a crop night at a local scrapbooking store. I haven't gone out aside from a grocery store run without my offspring in longer than I care to remember, so I was really excited. On top of that, I decided that I was going to spend the time working on an albulm I want to give my grandfather for Christmas. So as you can see I was understandably psyched to go.

A little after midnight I dragged my tired butt home to find out that Miss M. had been running a fever. She was up almost all night which meant no sleeping for me as well. After two trips to the dr's on Saturday and then again on Monday, she's finally on the mend. She was officially diagnosed with a virus. Fever is gone but she's still acting cranky. I think it's caused by teeth more than anything else right now, but we will see.

I hate this time of the year for illness. At almost 18 months, C started a series of ear infections that led to her getting tubes. Miss M has already had her fair share, and the dr. has already said she's on the road to see an ENT before the winter is out. Hopefully she'll make it through ear infection free!!

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Bah Humbug!!!

Yes, I am officially a Grinch. I've noticed every year how stores start the Christmas season early and earlier. At first, it was right around Thanksgiving, then it was Veteran's Day, was out before freaking Halloween!!! WTH?? Next year I'll be getting Caitlin's school supplies and buying tinsel at the same time?!?

Some may say I'm completely overreacting to some early holiday tidings, but it's not just that at all. Sure, I can't take Christmas lights up before December 1st but I know that's my personal pet peeve. What's bothering me is why are we rushing it? Why are we preparing for a holiday that is months away? Are our lives so busy that we need to multitask even holiday shopping right now? Buy a pumpkin and get a Christmas wreath for free??

I've recently discovered (well really admitted) that I am running, no sprinting through my life. Who made me realize this? My precocious first born, Miss C. I believe her exact words as I was rushing to get somewhere were, "Slow down Mommy! I can't move this fast!!" And she's right. She can't move that fast and neither can I without feeling like I'm shooting up crack. So the moral of this story is...SLOW DOWN!! Enjoy each moment even if you are running late, because you're running past precious moments in your life. In my case this means I need to wake up earlier or prepare more the night before so we don't have to rush, but I think it will be worth it. End of public service message...

Friday, November 2, 2007

Happy Halloween!

Here are some Halloween pictures. Both girls had a great time!!

Here is C posing with our pumpkins. Yes, that is a Cinderella pumpkin next to her...

Here is one of the girls with J. C is doing this smiling with her head up thing that we can't stop. Oh well...

No big surprise that C was another princess this year for Halloween. I figure by the time she's 8 we'll probably have each and every one. I was going to dress M up as a black cat, Flounder (with C being Ariel), or Tinkerbell, but she kept yelling "MICKEY!!!" at the Disney store, so I took that as a hint. Luckily, I had a costume from C's second Halloween and just had to buy some ears. Nice, huh??

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Cox Farms

Since Blogger decided not to let me post more pictures in my last post, here are some shots of our day at Cox Farms on Sunday:

Here is C on the pony ride.

Here M is enjoying her apple.

I'll post some pictures from trick or treating tomorrow. Happy Halloween!!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Halloween Fun

Saturday we hit up Boo at the Zoo which was held at the National Zoo. We had a great time especially since our friends from Richmond came up. Here's a shot of C and her buddy.

Unfortunately, our camera died right after that but our friends got some. I'll post one once I get it.

Sunday we headed out to Cox Farms for their Fall Festival which was a ton of fun. C enjoyed a pony ride and M loved the apples!!

Today was C's school parade. Here is a quick shot of that.

Monday, October 29, 2007

Thank you, thank you

Just a little prayer from the mouth of Miss C...

"Thank you for our food and friends, thank you, thank you, Armens."


Friday, October 26, 2007

The Great Pumpkin

Monday the girls and I headed to a local pumpkin farm. We had a great time. There were hayslides, a hay ride, petting zoo, and fresh apples and apple cider! The weather was beautiful and the girls really enjoyed the morning.

After running around for a while, we went to head out and grab our pumpkins. My kids seem to have a strange attraction to pumpkins. Could it be because I loved to eat pumpkin muffins while I was pregnant with both of them?? They both treat the pumpkin like it is a new member of the family. Let's start with Miss C's story...
C got her first pumpkin at school last week. They did a cute little hayride to the other side of the school where a local farm provided pumpkins for all the kids. C was so excited to show off her pumpkin when she got in the car. When we brought it home, she immediately sat it down at her little table and ate lunch with it. Ok...strange right? Well, it doesn't end here. Her princess dolls had to play and talk with the pumpkin, and get this, the pumpkin talks back?!? She wanted to know where the pumpkin would sleep and what it eats. After several discussions of how the pumpkin is not a person, I decided to approach it another way. Why not decorate the pumpkin? So, armed with a white crayon, black paper, scissors and tape, I let C draw a face and then cut it out herself and tape it to the pumpkin. Let me tell you, it was cute. If I had known it was going to come off so quickly, I would have taken a picture right then and there. Well no sooner are we done, then Miss C starts a complete OCD meltdown about how we HAD to take it off the pumpkin. I was able to convince her to leave it on long enough for Daddy to see it, but she would not go to bed until it was off. So nakey pumpkin it is...

With Miss M, it's not so much a person, but she loves it. As in hugs and kisses, won't put it down love it. She insisted on having it in the stroller, her carseat, and then had a complete meltdown when it wasn't allowed in the tub!! So M's pumpkin has moved outside. Mean?? I did go out and get her a cute felt trick or treat bag that's a pumpkin so she has that, and then some of those tiny pumpkins to carry around. See, I'm not completely heartless! ;)

So I ask you...are my kids weird or what?? Are they the only ones with this extreme obsession to the pumpkins??

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Ignorance is bliss??

I apologize for not updating sooner...I've been out of town for family reasons. To catch up, I went to the doctor late Wednesday afternoon and found out that my thyroid is screwy. I'm relieved to say the least, but it's still not resolved. You see, right now I have hyperthyroidism which means my thyroid is in overdrive. It gives me lovely side effects such as nonstop shaking, dizziness, fatigue, stomach issues, anxiety, and all kinds of other lovely things.

The normal course of treatment for this is to take medication to help suppress the hormones the thyroid puts out there. My doctor has not prescribed anything for me yet as she ordered more tests. One is a blood test to see if it's a virus that's causing my thyroid issues and the other is a nuclear thyroid scan. Sounds fun, right? Well, I got the blood test done today, so one down...but the scan is another story. I have to wait for my &*@# insurance company to authorize the test, and who knows how long that will take. Such a pain!

So, me being who I am came home from my appointment last week and immediately looked up what my thyroid is doing and the possible causes. I'm hoping it's just genetics (as every woman on my mom's side has a thyroid issue) and not some of the others. The scan is going to check for nodules which should be nothing if I have them, but there's always that chance that it's something more. So now I'm left wondering...was I better off before I knew what was going on? Was it better to worry about the way I was feeling or now worry as to the cause?? I guess time will tell...

Monday, October 15, 2007

Busy weekend and phone calls...

We had a busy weekend catching up around here. This was the first weekend in a while that we've been home without something major to do. So what did we do? CLEAN!! Yup, cleaned, organized, and even made a trip to IKEA. So much for relaxing, but at least the house is cleaner!

This morning I finally got the phone call regarding my blood work and of course I wasn't here to get it. When I called back, they told me I need to come in to discuss the test results. When was the earliest I could get in?? WEDNESDAY!! And of course I got the last appointment of the day! Ugh! I have to sit in misery until then. I'm hoping and praying it's nothing, but the wait is KILLING me. I'm not a very patient person to begin with, but this is agony!

I'm expecting it to be one of 4 things: thyroid (all the women on my mom's side have issues), blood sugar (again HUGE family history), vitamin D deficiency, or cholesterol. I'm trying to focus on those things because they are all treatable, and easily handled. I'm trying to stay positive because I mean, after all, if it was really, really bad the doctor would have called me herself...right?!?

I'll update as soon as I know for sure...

Wednesday, October 10, 2007


Waiting for impending bloodwork has made me impatient and grouchy. Last week I had a pretty severe reaction to some antibiotics and other medications I have been taking for my sinus/ear issues. I went in for a checkup with my doctor and she recommended bloodwork to make sure nothing else is the culprit. While I have slowly started to feel better since stopping the meds, I'm still anxious that I'm going to get a call from my doctor that something else is wrong.

The truth of the whole matter is that I'm just scared. The last things any of us needs is for me to be sick. Going home this weekend didn't help. It's hard to leave someplace where I have so much support, to go back here where I'm alone. God forbid something is truly wrong, I'm not sure how we will cope. I know somehow we will, because we have to right? Life cannot stop and lord knows, the girls definitely won't!

In the meantime I'll be waiting, albeit not patiently for the phone to ring. Hopefully I'll be back soon with good news.

Monday, October 1, 2007

M's First Haircut

On Saturday we took M for her first "official" haircut. I had been trimming her bangs at home while the rest of her hair grew, but it was time. She was excellent during the whole thing. She barely moved and didn't cry at all. Big change from C's first cut which she screamed through the whole thing.

Here are some pictures of the event:

When she first got her bangs cut, she looked at me like, "Look Mom...I can see!"

Sunday, September 30, 2007

Afternoon at the Circus

Today we took the girls to see the Big Apple Circus. If you've never seen it, you really should. It's how the circus should be...under one big tent. Both kids loved it although M got a little restless at times and took some walks. She loved the puppies and the acrobats, as well as the lights. C said her favorite part was the horses.

We tried to take some pictures at it, but honestly they are all bad! LOL! It was really difficult trying to get both kids to not only look at the camera, but also smile with all the other stuff to look at. Oh well, maybe next year!

Monday, September 24, 2007

Crazy Hair Day

Today the girls and I had a crazy hair day. Here are some pictures from it:

Fun Fun!!

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Where have we been?

Well, I wish I could be writing a post to say we've been on some exotic vacation or won the Powerball but in truth we've just been busy. Here's quick rundown of what's going on...
  • C started school at the beginning of September (Thank God!!!). She goes to a preschool 5 minutes from home two mornings a week. Sure, I wish it was more, but hey it's something, right?
  • C is also signed up for some classes to keep us busy. She now has gymnastics and ballet/tap on Fridays, and will start swimming class in October.
  • M has been enjoying some alone time with me. So far we've gone grocery shopping, taken trips to the park, attended a tots playgroup, and gone to MOPS.
  • M had her 15 month checkup in which she was 31 3/4 inches tall and 23 lbs. 9 ozs. She was a real trooper even through her 2 shots.
  • I've been back and forth to the doctor's again. Have yet another sinus/ear infection (my 4th of the summer) and had sinus xrays done. Luckily they came up clear but I'll be heading back next week for a follow up.
  • I'm serving as the Activities Coordinator for our MOMS Club in town and also attending MOPS twice a month. (Just is case I wasn't busy enough already...)
  • We've had things going on every weekend so far and it won't end until late October! Some of our fun has been: going to Richmond to visit friends, heading to Six Flags for J's company's annual picnic. This weekend we're heading to the circus!

That's basically been it. Lately I feel like I should put a meter in my car and earn some money for all the driving I'm doing! So...that's been it. Hopefully I'll start getting a little more free time soon and be able to post more often.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

But why mommy???

C and I were talking about going to school yesterday. She starts preschool two mornings a week after a hiatus since April. It's a new school, so I'm trying to get her all revved up about it. While we were talking over dinner about it, she said:

"But Mommy, why do I have to go to school if you don't work anymore??"

She actually had me stumped there a minute for an answer... Finally I told her she needed to go to learn things and play with new friends. She was ok with that response. At least for now... Here are some more of her latest why questions:

"Why does the sun go to bed at night? Doesn't it want to play with the moon?"
"But why can't we get another kitty? Milo is so lonely and he needs friends!"
"Why do I need clean underwear? My bottom is clean because I wiped it."'s getting so hard to come up with legitimate answers and not laugh!!!!

Time with Elmo

Last week we took the girls on a mini-vacation. It was a last minute whirlwind trip to Sesame Place and the Jersey shore. J had a few vacation days booked for the summer and we were going to save them and make a long Labor Day weekend, but he had to head away on a business trip so we had to use them or lose them. M has really been into "Melmo" these days so we decided this was the year to go. I'm glad we did it when we did. C had a blast going to the shows and seeing the characters. Her favorite part was the tea cup ride with Daddy. (I sat sideline with M to avoid puking!)

M called everyone Melmo and loved it as well. She danced along with the shows and had a blast in the smaller play areas. Unfortunately she was sick Friday so she was kind of miserable at the park, but once we got her some medicine and cooled off in the pool, she was much happier.

Friday night through Sunday we went to Brick, NJ to visit my cousin and her boyfriend. They have a house on the bay there with a heated inground pool (nice!) and a boat. Both C and M enjoyed the pool and even the spin on the boat, or ship as C calls it. C was the jr. captain and even got to drive!! She was all smiles during that!!

Unfortunately it was really cold and rainy so there was no playing on the beach for us. However, we headed to Point Pleasant and took in the boardwalk and some yummy funnel cake. The kids loved the rides and food until it started pouring. We then skeedaddled out of there and sat in the car eating our funnel cake.

Overall it was a great trip!! I'll post some pictures of it later.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Girly Update

So it's been awhile since I've posted an update on the girls. Here's their current latest and greatest:


  • Is enjoying the summer at the pool. She's now swimming on her own with floaties, and just started going underwater.
  • She's developed quite a nice tan!!
  • Can count to 10 in Spanish with help on prounciation.
  • She's really into trying new things. We've recently been going to some outdoor concerts near us and she's loving it.
  • Is now 38.5 inches tall, which is 1.5 inches bigger than she was right around her birthday.


  • Just got molar #1 of 4 through. The rest should be coming any day now, along with the fangs.
  • Is running around like a madwoman!! She hates being carried or being in the stroller.
  • Has gotten over her water fear and enjoys splashing in the pool.
  • Can now say: shoe, grape, Elmo, Mema, Papa, Caitlin, Mommy, Daddy, yum, thank you (clearer now), meow or milo for our cat, Allie, bubble, Diego, Dora, me, up, side (for outside). We're working on please, more, and all done.
  • Just got her first pair of sneakers in a size 6! She loves her shoes!
  • Can climb up the stairs and is thinking about going back down.
  • Loves to go in the swing at the park or down the slide.
  • Hates to be in the grass, sand, or sitting in the pool! If she falls down then she yells until someone picks her up again.

It's amazing how much they've changed in just a few months!

Monday, August 6, 2007

Birthday Resolutions

So Saturday was my birthday. Usually they suck, and I mean really suck. They consist of people forgetting (including my mom), something bad happening paired with some really nasty August weather. I don't usually look forward to them but this year was different. Maybe it's getting older or my kids that have changed me, but this year I was determined to not to be in a huge funk on my day. Having to attend a wedding and starting the day on the beach definitely aided that, but I also think I'm just expecting less. Either way, my day came and went but I made some resolutions to myself. Here they are:
  • I will work on becoming happier with who I am despite my flaws.
  • I will eat healthier and work out more regularly so that my children are brought up in a household where that matters.
  • I will spend less time worrying about what other people think of me.
  • I will spend more time telling people how much they mean to me.
  • I will not let money run my life.
  • I will take each day as it comes and try to let it go each night before bed.
  • I will continue to try new things and meet new people.

Yes, that is quite a list. Of course, these are all things I should be doing already but I've decided enough is enough. I can't keep making excuses as to why I don't do certain things or meet more people. I need to live each day for what it is and try to make myself a little better along the way. I'm hoping this will help me stay happier and teach my daughters not to stress the way I did. I've always been the responsible one and the worrier since I was a child, so much to the point I would forget to enjoy being young. So now I am going to enjoy it and hope that my positivity will rub off. I know this will not be easy and each day will provide new challenges, but I am ready. Sad it's taken me 29 years to figure that out....

We made it...and then some...

Well, we did it...J and I went away for a weekend alone. Yup, no kids from Thursday - Monday. I brought them up to stay with the inlaws on Tuesday and came back to VA on Thursday. Yes, I did break down a few times on the way back home but I did not turn around the car. I limited the phone calls to twice a day...morning to check in and night to say goodnight. Once we got to VA Beach on Friday I was distracted enough by everything to not be so sad about it. The kids had a blast in NJ and we're hoping to be able to do it again soon.

As for our weekend it was by far one of the best vacations we have had. I wish we would have had an extra day, but all in all, it was just what we needed. We went down with friends of ours and had so much fun at the beach and hanging around, not to mention the wedding. That was a blast! (Of course the open bar and multiple margaritas definitely contributed to that!!) We even ended the weekend on a high note and went to dinner and a movie (Bourne Ultimatum...LOVED it!!).

So I will admit that everyone who told me to go was right. It was a nice break for the kids, for J and I, and for myself. And the kids don't despise me for leaving...although M did give me a hard time when I saw her, the little stinker! This will definitely become a yearly occurrance in our house!

Monday, July 30, 2007

Am I really going to go????

So J and I are scheduled to go away this weekend sans kids. We're heading to VA Beach for a friend's wedding/belated anniversary/my birthday celebration. Up until the last week I've been looking forward to this like a person on a diet looks at a bakery. I wanted to sleep, see a movie, have a blast at the wedding, and oh, did I mention, sleep?? The girls will be in the more than capable care of my inlaws and plenty of my family will be there to take them out and about. Well this past week major anxiety has set in about the whole thing and I'm actually considering not going. (NOTE: That won't actually happen because unless I've severed a limb and am gushing blood, J will kill me if we don't go!!)

So, what has set off this delusion that I cannot leave my children for a measly few days you may ask? To begin, this trip is going to cost us a small fortune. Between the driving and hotel, not to mention the wedding it will probably be the most costly long weekend we've ever been on. This alone is making me consider only going down Saturday for the wedding and heading back.

My next excuse, I mean reason, to not go: guilt. to love the guilt!! What am I feeling guilty about? Let me count the ways...
1. I've never been away from M for more than a few hours and she's going through a major attachment to me right now.
2. We haven't been away from C since she was 9 months old, and am afraid after a day of fun at Mema's she's going to want to go home.
3. I feel bad that my inlaws will have the girls for so many days.
4. Did I mention that M is also teething and waking up at night?
5. And that C has been attached to J at the hip these days? before you all jump on here and yell at me that I have to go, I deserve to go...I know. Rationally I know. My brain is not that mushy to understand that I need a break and my children do too. However, I don't think I would be a mom if I wasn't worried about the impact it's going to have on my children. This really is a test to see how we all do. If it works well then hopefully there will be more mini vacations in my future, or at least the kids going to NJ without us. If it's a bust, well then who knows when we will go away again...when they are out of the house???

Monday, July 16, 2007

Is anyone out there??

Wow...I can't believe it's been so long since my last post. I wish I could say I was on some exotic trip or indulging in some other form of pampering, but that hasn't been the case. What has been keeping us busy you may ask?? Well, for the kids it's been a series of activities from trips to NJ, swim class, and playing outside. For J and I it's been sleepless nights and lots of driving!! Wish I could say we're slowing down, but not quite yet. We're heading back to NJ for the week. I'm hoping to take the girls to the shore (yes, I'm from Jersey and proud!!) and to a children's museum on top of all the family visits we have to attend to. Can we say mommy needs a margarita and a massage???

M has been perfecting her walk these days and she's doing a great job. She's now moved on to being able to stand from anywhere using the bottoms up approach. She loves being mobile and HATES when we try to keep her on our lap these days. Just this afternoon, she was chasing C down the hallway giggling away. It really was an adorable sight.

Miss C has been a handful recently. I have been having a hard time keeping her entertained especially on these hot days when we need to stay indoors. That's part of the reason we're heading to NJ again. She always has a blast and there are so many visitors to occupy her with. She is loving swimming, and would stay in the pool all day long if we allowed. We've been talking a lot about starting school again so she can get used to the idea. I think she's going to love it although she's skeptical. She keeps telling me that she's going to be shy and not have any friends. :(

I've been working on getting rid of my neck/back issues hard core these days. I'm going to physical therapy twice a week and getting all kinds of injections to help it out. I wish I could say it's getting better, but it's not. I'm not sure what's going on but I've been getting terrible headaches and migraines again. Of course to top all this off I seemed to have caught some kind of cold or virus the end of last week and was just miserable. Ugh, I just want to feel normal!!!! Next week I'm heading in for a steroid epidural in my neck. probably will be as much fun as it sounds. :P

Off to switch the laundry and try and get some sleep....

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Did I sign up for all this?

I had been doing some serious thinking recently about all the things I try and accomplish in a day. The typical day in our household goes something like this:

2 am -- Wake up to M's cries and convince her to go back to sleep.
5:45 am --Wake up to J's alarm and try to pretend I don't hear it.
7:15 am -- C comes storming in our room freaking out that she missed J before he left for work.
7:16 am -- C demanding breakfast but only daddy can get it.
7:30 am -- M waking up and looking to eat.
7:35 am -- Put a cup of water in the microwave for tea.
7:40 am --Realize I forgot the water and reheat it.
7:45 am -- Realize I forgot to take the teabag out. Add tons of milk and sugar to compensate.
7:46 am -- C in complete meltdown because she only said goodbye to daddy 3 times.
7:47 am -- Release a yelling M out of her high chair and let her down to play.
7:48 am -- Damn, where's my tea??

Yup...that's just the morning. At around 9 am I get the brazen idea to try and do something: clean, take the kids out somewhere, etc. BAD idea!! It usually winds up that M is too tired at around 10-10:30 to go too far from home, or even better, we have been getting stuck in nasty thunderstorms! Nothing better than loading two cranky kids and groceries in the car during a downpour!!

By this time of the day I'm done for and it's not even lunchtime. Recently this has gotten me thinking...what the hell was I thinking when I thought this would be easy?? I mean I worked in daycare but had no real appreciation of everything that goes into mommyhood. And now that I'm not working and C is home full time, you would think that this would be less work deadlines, no worrying about C after dropoff, etc., but instead it's worse. Sure now my stress relates to how I'm going to get the dishes done quietly while M naps and keep C quietly entertained, but it's stress no less. The days that I used to travel to NJ and work full time in my office I used to dream about not working and staying I seem to be daydreaming about quiet worktime. Is something wrong with me?? I wouldn't give up this opportunity to stay with the girls for anything right now, but at the same time I'm definitely missing the adult interaction and quietness of my worklife. Ahhh...I'm sure every mom feels the same way, right??

Summer craziness...

Ahh, the summer craziness has begun! Last weekend we went to Richmond for a friend's son's (and C's best pal) 3rd bday party. C and M had a great time and it was nice to all visit for a little while. Sunday, C began her swim lessons which went fine until class was over. Apparently she felt it wasn't done yet and threw a fit getting out of the pool. Gotta love 3 year olds! Grr...

Wednesday we spent the 4th shopping (a true American past time!) and then had a bbq with a friend and her daughter. We then headed into J's office to watch the DC fireworks. They were good, but definitely don't even compare to NYC!!

We are now heading up to NJ for a long weekend. J's sister is in from CA and we have a graduation party to go to. Busy, busy!!

Hopefully we will all survive all this driving!

Thursday, June 28, 2007

What the....

I just saw a scary commercial for this on Noggin. I can't even explain how many different ways this scares me!

The day it all started

So today is J and my 12 year anniversary. Wow...sounds weird just saying that. We have been together since we were juniors in high school! We definitely have had our good and bad times, but I can honestly say it has made out relationship stronger. I'm lucky that I found my soulmate at 16 and I'm even luckier that as we have gotten older our relationship has matured right along with us. Lots of hugs and kisses to J tonight! :)

In other news, C, M, and I headed to a children's performance this morning in my neverending quest to find cheap things to occupy us. We had a good time, but it was definitely HOT. Not sure I would recommend going to an outdoor performance on a day like today, but luckily it was completely shaded so that helped some. The other upside was the girls napped like angels this afternoon!

We are busy getting ready for this weekend. Saturday we are heading to a birthday party in Richmond. C is thrilled to spend some time with her man. Sunday, C is starting swim lessons again. She took them as an infant but the instructor wasn't all that great and her constant ear infections kept us away. We're doing a parent/child class for 8 weeks with the hope I can enroll her in a child only class this fall. I'll definitely post some pictures of her underwater adventures.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

These boots were made for walking...

So big news in our house..... M is walking!! She took 2 steps on Sunday, followed by 8 yesterday...and she's just going from there. I'm so excited and scared at the same time it's not even funny! My back is loving that I won't need to carry her as much soon, that's for sure! Not sure how I'm going to handle both girls running around, but we'll manage.

On top of this, I got a call from C's ballet teacher yesterday that Miss C may be in a local newspaper this week!! Apparently a reporter was there on Friday during the dress rehearsal and snapped a few pics of her. They have asked my permission for one of them to appear, but we won't know for sure until it comes out on Friday. I can't wait to see!!

Exciting week in our house so far!!!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Dancing Queen

Yesterday was C's big dance recital. It was called Flowers & Fairies and Miss C. was a Buttercup. She did ballet and tap in it beautifully. We had one minor breakdown causing her teacher to call me backstage (along with 2 other moms) because she wanted me to put on her tap shoes. After I arrived, lollipops were passed out, and a promise of a Barbie if she kept smiling, the show went on. Here are some pictures of her grooving her thing... This first one was prior to the start of her show...

Here are some ballet moves...

The whole thing was adorable. Even M loved the music and seeing big sis dancing. And yes, she got her Barbie afterwards. I know, bad mommy...LOL.

Now dance is over for the summer and I'm stuck wondering what the heck we are going to do with our time! C will start swim classes this Sunday, but other than that, we will have to find some things to do. We'll be heading to NJ a bunch of times, and I'm sure we will go down the shore, but that's about it. It's going to be a looooonnnnngggg summer!!

Friday, June 22, 2007

1 year and counting...

Today is a rough day in so many ways. First, in the normal mom way it's rough because both kids were up alternating hours all night. C was up with a nightmare, I think, and M was running a fever (again!). I swear they sit down before bedtime and map out which hour they are going to be up so I can get precisely to the point where I'm deep asleep in bliss and then *MOMMMMMYYYYY!!!* can be heard. I'm not sure there is enough caffeine in NoVA to keep me going today, but we will try. Going to take a shower and maybe try some new soap and see if that helps. (Oh yes...that is real...)
Secondly, this is a crazy busy day for us. Here's our schedule...

9:45 am -- Take my sister to work.
10:30 am -- Get M down for nap.
10: 30 -12 pm -- Clean like a mad woman in preparation for inlaws arrival.
12- 1 pm -- Get the kids fed and down for naps.
2:30 pm -- Babysitter arrives.
3:00 pm -- Meet J at title company to sign mortgage docs. (We're refinancing)
4:30 pm -- Get C ready and over to her dance recital dress rehearsal.
5 - 7:00 pm -- C's dress rehearsal.

In all of this what is not included is me taking a shower, getting laundry done, possibly taking M to the dr (if her fever returns), and my inlaws arriving. Not to mention what the heck we will do for dinner?!?

Finally, and this is the part I've been really dreading, today is the one year anniversary on my grandmother passing away. This time last year I was getting the kids packed up in the car to make my way to NJ, two weeks post c-section, to help with the arrangements. Here I thought I would do little things, but instead I took on buying the flowers, putting together pictures, and writing the euology?!? What was I thinking?? I have to say that by far this was the hardest thing I have ever done. My grandmother was like my mom so dealing with her death was intense. What made it worse was that I didn't make it up to say goodbye, and she never met M. I'm not sure I will ever get over that. So, today is definitely a day I would love to stay in bed and sleep through, but that's just not possible. Instead, I'll cut the crap as my grandmother used to say and plow through.
Here's a picture of us together. It's from my baby shower with C before the cancer started.

Grandma...I miss you more than words can say. I think of you all the time and know you are looking down on all of us. I love you.


Tuesday, June 19, 2007

The Rules...

Tonight before putting C to bed, she was playing with her princess hopscotch. As she was putting it together, she quite seriously told me about the "rules". They were as follows...

1. You always have to be nice to me.
2. You always have to give me hugs and kisses.
3. You always have to make me lunch.
4. You always have to make my dinner and eat yours.
5. You always have to play nice things with me.

This whole interaction was quite amusing to me. I found it very hard to keep a straight face through the conversation. As you can guess, I've been enforcing some rules of my own these days. Seems like C is deciding hers are better...

Straight from the mouth of C...

C has quite a personality. I thought I would share a few conversations we had recently...

#1 -- Her new bed...

C...Mommy, I love my bed. When you grow smaller you can sleep with me.

Me...Thanks honey, but grown ups don't grow smaller, they keep getting bigger just like you get bigger.

C... Ok...but your legs can get smaller and then you will fit. :)

#2 -- While eating her dinner last night

C... My taco stuff is all coming out!

J...It's ok, I'll help you put it back together.

C... Thanks Daddy. It's too hard for little kids to do this. That's why you go to work.

J & Me...(muffling laughter)

#3 -- Neverending Questions (usually around bedtime)

C...Mommy, why do we have bottoms?

Me...So we have a place to sit.

C...But then why do we need chairs?

Me...So we have a comfortable place to sit.

C...But some bottoms have pillows on them so they would be comfy.

Me...(LOL) What do you mean?

C...Some bottoms are smushy like a pillow.

Me... (Really laughing now) Yes honey, I guess they are.

C....So then why do we need chairs??

I'm definitely at the million question stage with her. It's fun and annoying that's for sure. I'll share more memorable ones as they occur...


Friday, June 15, 2007

Cake meet M...

Here are some pictures of M and her birthday cake. She ate the whole piece!!

Here she is showing off her bite...

Just wanted to share. I'll write a more noteworthy post later.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

M's Big Day!

Yesterday was M's first birthday! So, I thought I would relive it with a picture of her and how she was born...

I started having severe back pain and contractions at 11 pm on Thursday night. I tried everything to make it go away: drank water, walked, took a bath, etc. The only relief I felt was in the bath but about a half hour after I got out, it just got worse. I started timing my contractions, and they would get to be about 6 minutes apart, and then would space out to 10 minutes. I figured I would wait as long as I could, then call the dr.

By noon on Friday, I was miserable. I was still having back pain, and decided to call my doctor. I called them at 1:30 pm, and they told me to head to L&D. I got there around 3 pm. They immediately hooked me up to a monitor and said I wasn't contracting. My doctor then came to see me, and she turned off the monitor and put her hands on my belly. She then said, Oh are contracting! DUH!!! She then moved the monitor, and there they were...every 2-3 minutes. She asked me how long it was going on, and I told her since the night before. She left me for an hour, then came back to check me...and guess what. NO change!! I was still just 1cm, and my cervix was posterior. She told me her guess was the baby was too big for my pelvis, especially based on the back pain. After talking it over with her and J, we decided to go in for a c-section. They made a few quick calls, and I was scheduled for 6:30 pm that night.

The c-section went well. I have to say, I was nervous since I got so sick last time and felt so much pain...but this time was perfect. No vomiting, no pain. They did a great job at responding to me. At 7:17 pm, M screamed her way into the world. :) She was so stuck in me, it took two people pushing on my uterus to get her out!! The dr was relieved that I went for the c-section especially when they weighed her. M was 8lbs. 2ozs. and 19 inches long. This was at 38 weeks!!!
I love you M and can't believe how big you are!! I can't wait to see how much you grow and change over the next year.

-- K

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

Illness & other issues...

God, what a horrible few days we have been having! Both kids were sick with high fevers so of course, that means none of us have gotten a decent night's sleep. I've been running on empty for about 2 weeks now as one of the girls was up every night with something... I long for a nice nap or decent night's sleep. Here's hoping it's coming soon!!

Aside from the sickness in my house, I've finally ventured back to the doctor for myself. You see, I hurt my neck and back a while back and just went to get the CT scan results. Turns out I have 4 bulging discs in my neck and another teamed with arthritis in my lower back. What does this mean ladies and gentlemen? Well, I'm going to be going for some serious (read steriod epidural!!) injections into my neck and back, as well as some physical therapy for the next few months. Fun, right?!? On top of that my doctor gently reminded me that I need to try and lose a few pounds. As if it were that easy...oh wow, *poof* there goes 10 right now! Seriously though, I have been trying but my life doesn't help. I used to not eat at all when I was upset and now I have the opposite issue. Sugar, particularly contained in chocolate is my best friend. It's always there to give me a nice warm feeling when I'm feeling crappy and all it asks in return is that I keep eating it!! It's been working for me a little too long and I realize it. I also know I can't diet on my own, so I'm going to drag my flabby butt down to Weight Watchers next week and see what they can do for me (Hi, my name is Kelly and I'm a fat beast!)...

Finally, it's M's birthday this Saturday. It's hard to believe my little baby (ok at 22 lbs, she's not that little!!) is going to be 1. What's even more incredible to me is that she's also my last baby. She's growing up way too fast for me to deal with that. I need to get a fix on that baby smell one more time before she turns into a stinky! For about half a second when I see a small infant, particularly boys, I dream about having another. And then reality hits and makes me realize how much more insane my life would be if we had 3 kids...especially close in age!! So I'm done with kids, at least for now...

Ok, off to get some things done around here.

Friday, May 18, 2007

Tag, you're it...

Here are the rules... Each person tagged gives 7 random facts about themselves. Those tagged need to write in their blogs the 7 facts, as well as the rules of the game. You need to tag seven others and list their names on your blog. You have to leave those you plan on tagging a note in their comments so they know that they have been tagged and to read your blog.

1. When I was younger I used to try and "erase" my freckles.

2. I've never travelled outside of the US or it's territories (not that I haven't wanted to!).

3. I'm the oldest on both sides of my family.

4. I used to want to be an environmental attorney when I grew up.

5. As much as I love being home with my kids, I miss working.

6. I broke my leg in a car accident when I was 3.

7. Being a mom has changed my perspective on life and has brought me closer to my own mother.

Thanks Leigh Ann for tagging me. :P I think I'll tag Mel...

Monday, May 14, 2007

Ramblin' Family...

This weekend we were on the road again. This time back to NJ to visit the family for Mother's Day. I swear we are living our lives on the road these days!!

Mother's day was ok. Got a cute card from the girls and J. I've decided that next year I'm not going to watch tv around this holiday. Can't take all the sappy commercials where the kids bring their mom's breakfast in bed and a diamond necklace. It definitely gets my hopes up that it will happen to me. Completely ridiculous, I know. Still, the illusion is there. I did get lots of hugs from the girls, which made my day...but in reality, I get those everyday. Not really a special day here, so I guess I'm just grateful that I get to feel loved everyday.

We've got a busy month ahead of us. M will be a year at the beginning of June, my cousin is graduating from high school, C has a dance recital, and our friend's son will be 3. Lots of ramblin' coming up!

Off to feed the masses...

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Kid's Update

I figured we are way overdue for an update on the girls. So, here we go...

- is fully potty trained. She's even staying dry overnight now and is very proud of herself!
- is able to write her name by herself as long as I tell her the letters. When she takes her time, it looks really good!! We still have some work to do, but I'm really proud of her!
- is still a singing and dancing fool. She's constantly making up her own songs, especially when playing. She's completely into her tap dancing and loves showing it off!
- enjoys meeting new friends when we go out. Although she tells me that she's being shy, she's really doing a great job of playing with other kids.

- is starting to cruise around. She's been standing for a while, and definitely loves being a part of the action!
- has a total of 8 teeth now.
- is saying: mama, dada, baby, baba, ball, kaykay (for Caitlin), and kitty cat. New things are coming out everyday!
- will eat anything she can get her hands on. She loves quesadillas and bananas!! You can't walk by her with a banana and not give her some.

I think that's it for now. I'll try to post an update monthly!


Wednesday, May 2, 2007

One of these things....

So today was one of those days where I had a song going through my head. It was from the game that they used to play on Sesame Street..."One of these things is not like the other. One of these things just doesn't belong. Can you tell which one is not like the other...before I get to the end of the song??"

I've recently crawled out of my funk from no longer working, being depressed about several things, and decided it was high time for me to find some things to do with the girls and make some mommy friends! Brave, you may say...crazy as well. I've been down here (VA) for almost 4 years now and only have a few "close" friends. Most of them work during the day (or have recently moved away ;) ) so it's hard to make time to get together with the kids, and even harder without. So...with my newfound stay at home status, I have decided to search out other moms like me. Young, with two kids, struggling to make it all work and keep their senses of humor with them along the way. Seems like I've moved to the wrong town for that! I have met a number of nice women playgroups and various other outings...but I can't seem to "click" with any of them. Perhaps it's because I didn't have a great career to discuss before I had kids...or my kids are different ages. It may be because I don't have the gorgeous houses that others have that seem to come equipped with housekeepers (god, I would kill for that!!). Seems to me like there is already this "club" that existed before and I'm now the outsider trying to get in. Many of the women live in the same neighborhoods, or worked at the same places, or used the same dr's. It definitely makes it hard for me to meet anyone. I have come to the realization that as much as I am looking for playmates for the girls...I'm looking for some friends for myself as well. I've never had a hard time making friends before, but now it seems like I need a special decoder ring to fit in (or is it a multi diamond platinum ring?? hmmm...maybe I can weasle one of those in...I know, I wish!!)

I think all of this makes me miss NJ even more. All of my family is up there and at least I know I can hang out with them on a Friday night and not feel like such a loser. I know, I know...keep trying...I'll find my place soon. I keep telling myself the same thing, but after almost 4 years, it's kind of hard to believe. For now, I'm giving the SAHM thing a whirl and joining as many story times and playdates as I can. Hopefully soon I'll be posting about how I found the right group...for all of us!


Friday, April 27, 2007


Today is a memorable day. 5 years ago, I married my high school sweetheart, J. I can't believe how time has flown! It really doesn't seem like it has been that long...and yet here we are! On our honeymoon to St. John, we laid out some plans for our future anniversaries. For this one, we thought we would be on a trip to Hawaii. 10 years we were going to be back in St. John and renewing our vows. 15 years we would go to Italy. Man, how time (and children) changes everything!

J...Thank you for marrying me 5 years ago. On that day you made me the happiest woman ever. I know we have had our ups and downs over the past 5 years, but I think we are stronger for it. You continue to amaze me every day and make me realize how lucky I am. I know we aren't doing anything remotely like we imagined for our anniversary, but I am just happy to spend the night with you. I love you!!

Friday, April 13, 2007

Sadness and Grief

Last June was a difficult and joyous month. On the one hand, my angelic baby girl, M entered the world. Not even two weeks later, my grandmother who was more like a mother to me, passed away. All my family minus myself and my sister were there at her side when she went. I still have issues with the fact that I wasn't there, but at the same time I have realized that I could not have handled it. I still can't handle it. I've come to terms with it and am not crying all the time as I had been, but it definitely hurts.

It may seem strange that after so long I am writing this post, but I'm facing another crisis here. My grandfather is now in the hospital struggling to live. He had to have major brain surgery on Monday and is now on a ventilator. He's been sedated for the past few days and just today has been able to be off sedation. As difficult as it has been to see him sedated, I had a harder time seeing him today. He kept trying to talk to me and I couldn't understand him because he has the tube down his throat. I'm praying and hoping that he will be better but I'm not sure now. My head realizes that he's 87 years old, has lost his wife this year, and is probably ready to go. However, my heart can't deal with that. I cannot fathom losing both of them in a year. My grandfather was my father as my father was absent most of my life. This is like losing my parents. How do you deal with that? Where do you draw the line between what your head knows and what your heart feels??

I'm overcome with sadness and grief today. I'm sad for the situation and how my family is affected. I've effectively moved to NJ with the girls until my grandfather is either stable or... I can't even go that far. I'm grieving for my grandmother and beginning to grieve for my grandfather. Is this how you prepare for it? Will this make it hurt any less? I'm just overwhelmed right now and wish I could just sleep until everything is better. For tonight that is what I will do. Tomorrow, I will get up, have a nice breakfast with the girls and J and then head to the hospital. I will do my best to stay positive and smile at my grandfather. I know he needs happiness right now and that is what I will give him.


Monday, April 2, 2007

And they're off...

So in the last week, M has hit a major milestone...she's crawling and pulling up. She went from slowly crawling last week to now flying. She's getting close to standing. It's all exciting and scares the crap out of me at the same time. I'm going to have two kids to chase around?!? And now the real fun begins...

This week is C's first full week without school. To start off, we had C's big party with her school friends on Sunday. She had a blast and was so sugared up by the end, that she was actually running around in circles. Today we tried to go to the zoo and realized that going when all the kids are on spring break, the cherry blossoms are in bloom, and a new museum is opening...not a good idea! Instead, we drove around DC for almost 3 hours. We wound up going to the farm park around the corner from our house instead. Oh well...we'll try again another day...

Off to bed...


Thursday, March 29, 2007


Today I'm feeling grateful for my life. I know that it's had some major issues...but it's turned out better than I could ever imagine. I am married to the love of my life for almost 5 years now. He's the most caring, and wonderful man I could have ever asked for. Together we have a beautiful family with the best two little girls anyone could ask for. I may gripe about C not listening to me, or M keeping me up all night, but I couldn't be luckier.

What is sparking this insightfulness you may ask? A friend of mine has a son that is only 6 months older than M. He has been sick for a while now, and has taken a turn for the worst. He is need of a transplant to survive. I cannot even begin to imagine how this family is handling all of this. I felt horrible that I could not offer any comforting words. How do you talk to someone in this situation? Especially when you have a daughter so close in age? I will continue to pray and hope for this boy, but I feel so helpless.

All this experience has done is made me realize how lucky I am. If nothing else, we all have our health. We may be at our wits end with C not listening, or could stand to have some more money in the bank, but we are so lucky. So tonight, I will hug C and M a little longer, and tell J how much he means to me. I truly am one lucky woman...

-- K

Monday, March 26, 2007


Today is a big day in our family. It's C's 3rd and J's 29th birthdays! So here is a little post dedicated to them...

C...You are growing up so fast I can't stand it! You are a wonderful "big" girl and I love you so much! Happy birthday princess!

J...You are the love of my life. Thanks for sharing this crazy journey with me. Happy Birthday!

I'm lucky to have both of you in my life. I love you so much and hope you have a wonderful day. Here's to many more!


Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Need to vent

Ok, I need a venting post. Just something to get out my frustrations of today. So, here we go:

1. Why is it that when I accompany my daughter on a field trip at her school I wind up working more than the teachers? I had to belt kids in their seats, herd them in, keep them from running around, and finally (the real kicker), take 4 of them to the bathroom! I definitely felt like I should be getting a paycheck from C's school!

2. How is it that my family of 4 can create so much goddamn laundry?!? I swear I did all the kids clothes not 2 days ago and yet, here are more piles!! Where is my freaking laundry fairy??

3. I'm so tired of being in pain from my neck/shoulder! I hurt it almost 2 years ago and am going through some physical therapy for it. Yesterday I found out that I have some pinched nerves, possibly herniated disks, and most likely arthritis in my neck already! Umm...hello?? I'm not even 30 yet! If this is what I have to look forward to in getting older, count me out already!

4. I really want to know how some people have spotless houses with kids. I swear I could go on a cleaning binge for the next week and I still wouldn't be able to keep up with everything. Again...where is my freaking fairy??

5. Ok, so it's been a little over 9 months since I gave birth to M, and people are asking me when I'm going to start trying for a boy?!? Umm...riiiight... Don't even get me started on how I need to lose more weight first....

Thanks for letting me get that off my chest.


Friday, March 16, 2007

Two weeks and counting...

Two weeks until C is done with preschool. She's been in it 3 days a week since she was 18 months. We've taken her out since it's so expensive to keep her in with the sporadic work I have been doing, and since we are trying to move. Now the question comes, what the heck am I going to do to occupy her?? I have signed her up for a Tuesday dance class, and I'm hoping to find a playgroup or library group to fill in at least another day or two. I also went out and bought a preschool activity book to help me out! Oh boy...we may be making a lot of trips to NJ to compensate...

M is 9 months old now and is such a joy. Her personality is really coming out now and it looks like she will be giving C a run for her money. She's started really yelling when you take something away from her, or if she's bored. Today, she's decided to shriek almost all day long. It's definitely been an Advil day today!

It's hard to believe that C will be 3 so soon! God, where has the time gone?? We were supposed to head to NJ this weekend to celebrate, as well as meet some relatives that are in from Italy. Unfortunately, C woke up with a fever yesterday and today there's been some really crummy weather, so I'm not sure what we are doing now. We may still head up tomorrow, but we will have to see. Guess I should do some laundry so I have something clean to wear in case. It seems to never end!!


Friday, March 9, 2007

Wanted: The perfect jeans...

On behalf of all woman everywhere, I'm going to be placing the following want ad:

WANTED: A dedicated, hard worker who won't shirk from a challenge. Must be willing to adjust to difficult working circumstances without fading or ripping under pressure. This position will have many rewards including getting patted on the ass or admiring looks from people who appreciate your hard work. To qualify for this position, you must: be able to adjust to the ever fluctuating weight shifts, provide a supporting and slimming rear position, and be able to handle the ever changing demands of the wearer. Position may causing fading, staining and being crumpled in a laundry basket for undetermined lengths of time. Only qualified applicants need apply.

Ok...although I made light of this, I'm desperately searching for a GOOD pair of jeans!! I'm tired of jeans that are falling off my butt because my hips aren't big enough or my giant flabby stomach is pushing them down. What's the deal with that?? Or now since I'm a mom, should I be looking for jeans that come up to my boobs and will probably result in scary camel toe?? Can anyone recommend a happy medium here?? Thanks. I promise to post something better later. I'm just annoyed with the jeans today!


Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Blogging Virgin

Well, here it is, my inaugural post. I've decided to start this blog as a way to keep track of our crazy life with our two beautiful girls. Hopefully I will be able to post often, although all moms know how that goes... ;)

I guess to start off I should introduce everyone. Well, I'm of C (almost 3) and M (9 months) and wife to J for almost 5 years now. We live in VA although we are trying to move back to our hometown where all our family is. It would be nice to have all the family support! Right now, C is at preschool but I will be pulling her out at the end of the month. I'm now officially a stay at home mom!?! I'm happy, scared, stressed, and ready to start this next chapter. Stay tuned to see how we make it!!

More soon...