One of these things....

So today was one of those days where I had a song going through my head. It was from the game that they used to play on Sesame Street..."One of these things is not like the other. One of these things just doesn't belong. Can you tell which one is not like the other...before I get to the end of the song??"

I've recently crawled out of my funk from no longer working, being depressed about several things, and decided it was high time for me to find some things to do with the girls and make some mommy friends! Brave, you may say...crazy as well. I've been down here (VA) for almost 4 years now and only have a few "close" friends. Most of them work during the day (or have recently moved away ;) ) so it's hard to make time to get together with the kids, and even harder without. So...with my newfound stay at home status, I have decided to search out other moms like me. Young, with two kids, struggling to make it all work and keep their senses of humor with them along the way. Seems like I've moved to the wrong town for that! I have met a number of nice women recently...at playgroups and various other outings...but I can't seem to "click" with any of them. Perhaps it's because I didn't have a great career to discuss before I had kids...or my kids are different ages. It may be because I don't have the gorgeous houses that others have that seem to come equipped with housekeepers (god, I would kill for that!!). Seems to me like there is already this "club" that existed before and I'm now the outsider trying to get in. Many of the women live in the same neighborhoods, or worked at the same places, or used the same dr's. It definitely makes it hard for me to meet anyone. I have come to the realization that as much as I am looking for playmates for the girls...I'm looking for some friends for myself as well. I've never had a hard time making friends before, but now it seems like I need a special decoder ring to fit in (or is it a multi diamond platinum ring?? hmmm...maybe I can weasle one of those in...I know, I wish!!)

I think all of this makes me miss NJ even more. All of my family is up there and at least I know I can hang out with them on a Friday night and not feel like such a loser. I know, I know...keep trying...I'll find my place soon. I keep telling myself the same thing, but after almost 4 years, it's kind of hard to believe. For now, I'm giving the SAHM thing a whirl and joining as many story times and playdates as I can. Hopefully soon I'll be posting about how I found the right group...for all of us!

K